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365 Years a Day

The other day I heard someone slip up and say "365 years a day." Obviously, they meant to say "365 days a year" but the phrase caught my attention. I was like, sometimes it feels like 365 years in a day. Maybe it's just me but it feels like I'm behind all the time. With so many things to do it can seem like I'm trying to get 365 years of tasks done in a single day. As caregivers, we have so many things that need to get done it can feel like we have to run full throttle all the time to get everything done in a day.

After a while, it can start to wear away at your mind. Eventually, it goes deeper and wears away at your soul. That's when we become soul tired. When I reach that point it feels like my arms and legs are weights and it takes all my strength to hold my head up. I'm sure I'm about to go down for the proverbial third time and I don't know if I ever want to surface again or not. There are times I really like my cave. lol

Let me say honestly - today is one of those days. I'm emotionally spent. Worn out. If I wasn't wound so tight I might think about resting. But it's only a thought since I have so much that has to be done. To settle my thoughts and emotions, as my habit has been, I turn to the scriptures.

I think about Psalm 118:14 that says the Lord is my strength and my song. Psalm 18:1 says I love you O Lord, my strength.  My mind goes back to a familiar passage in Isaiah 40:29 that says He gives strength to the weary, and to him who lacks might, He increases power. I'm not a fan of the Message but it says it this way: He energizes those who get tired and gives fresh strength to dropouts.  That's funny - and so good!

Today, I will rely on Him for strength to make it. Even if I feel like I am facing 365 years in a day - I'll lean a little more into Him and let Him increase power. Power to make it through a day with our faith intact. Even though I know I won't be able to get everything done - I'll trust Him with what is done and what is undone. I'll have to trust Him for strength, might, and power to face this day. And that I will do. Will you join me?

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