Does it sometimes feel like our days, lives, and emotions are like a perpetual roller coaster ride? And I'm not talking about the kiddie roller coaster either. I'm comparing it to the biggest, scariest (and a little bit fun) way up and down roller coaster that only the brave will ride! (lol) Maybe (hopefully) it's not that way all the time, but most days sure do have a lot of ups and downs for caregivers.
With our emotions staying on the edge most of the time, it doesn't take a whole lot to tip us over. (Maybe it's just me!) Sometimes, we seem to hum along quite nicely figuring days out as we go. Then other times, it feels like one blow after the other with no relief in between. Maybe our loved one becomes ill. That's a game-changer. Supplies don't come, so you order them out of your own pocket. Then the order gets delayed. (LOL - yes it really happens this way, doesn't it?)
It can be quite overwhelming, even though there are good days and bad days; smooth days and rough days. Things can change on a dime - then change right back before you know it. But no matter what - it's going to come down to this one thing - trusting Him.
Trusting God remains the same no matter what we face in a given day or moment. It's kind of one of those broad choices we can make before, after, or during everything feeling like it's out of control, right? We will trust Him with good news and bad news. We will trust Him in illness or health. He is trustworthy when aides show up, or if they don't. He can still be trusted when people do their jobs, and when they don't.
Today, my mind is inundated with what-ifs and why-nots. But no matter what - it's all the same. I am going to trust Him. I'll trust Him with the things I can see and those things I cannot see. I'll trust Him if I feel alone, or if I feel surrounded. He's got this. He's got me. I'll rest in Him and trust Him for today - will you join me?