When I woke up this morning, I was just grateful. That may have spilled out wrong - there wasn't anything wrong except another long night, but I was just overcome with gratefulness. I spent some time thinking about how God has carried me all these years, even BC (before caregiving). Overnight, Chris had woken me up a time or two, and then I couldn't go back to sleep. I hate those unproductive hours, but they happen. When I finally started waking up and shaking off the early morning grogginess, I started thanking God for keeping me hidden in Him. I thanked Him for being with me and never leaving. That's when I had this thought - that He's still writing my story.
Over the years, I've had people talk to me about writing my caregiving story in a book. But my answer has remained the same. There's not a happy ending. So, this morning as I was meditating on Psalm 139 and how God watches us be formed in the womb, I realized that He didn't stop there. He's still writing our stories as we walk them out day by day.
So many times that He has carried me came to mind, and I let my thoughts wander back over the years of how I've had His peace in the most troubled times of life. I thought about how He has shown up and shown out on my behalf or on Chris' time and time again. The song "The Goodness of God" began to run through my mind and I joined it with my heart in silent but powerful praise to Him.
You see, He's still writing our stories, and He has left so much room for character development. (Lol.) He's lifted His eternal pen to write in peace where we need it. There's a line or two of joy too! He's written in comfort and then covered our stories' pages with His grace. It plays a supporting role. The ending just has to be good with an experienced writer like this.
Today, I may not feel it - but He's got me and my loved ones tucked safely into His heart. For that, I am thankful. As I go about my day, I'll think about how God has His pen out to write in whatever is needed. I'll trust that He's written Himself in as a major role as my life plays out. I trust Him to write my story. I'm going to grab a cup of coffee and watch what He comes up with next! Will you join me?
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