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Off Days

chris and I having a "chat"

Do you ever just have an off day? You're seriously trying to get yourself together all day long, and nothing seems to be working right. Today is one of those days. I slept in a bit later than normal, which set me behind to start with. Then the nurse came early, I've got clients wondering where their work is, and then my son's feeding tube got plugged. Ugh. It's only 10 am. lol. At this rate, I'll feel like I'm chasing my own tail all day long - getting nothing accomplished. I don't like off days - they are so inconvenient. But they happen way too often. 

My world and mind are spinning with all I need to get done today. It's easy to feel defeated early on. It's a great day to practice letting His peace reign in my heart. Right? But I have to ask - do I have time for that? Lol. I feel rushed. I feel hurried. I feel overwhelmed. The day is going to go on with or without me, and there are so many things I need to get done today, things that have to be done. I want to clock out and "go home" like you would from a regular job. But that ain't happenin'.

So, it's a good time to sit, grab a cup of coffee or tea, and just let it whirl all around me. I have to calm my mind and remind myself that all the things that need to get done - will get done. Tomorrow, I'll be looking back at God's hand of mercy on today, and I'll see His thread of grace, even though my "today' is blinding my view presently.

Isn't it in moments like these that He becomes so much more real, so much more present? When I calm my mind and heart and just curl up in His hand and let Him carry me - clarity comes. The day gets done. I'm learning to just take a step back and wait. I wait for His peace. Then I embrace it. I wait for His direction, then follow it. I wait for His voice. Then I listen. I'm so thankful that He doesn't abandon me on these crazy caregiving days.

Today, I'll just let Him carry me. My biggest job is to quiet my mind and emotions and trust His grace as this day rolls out before me. Each step, I'll remind myself that He's got me. Each breath, I'll remind myself it's the same breath He breathed into Adam. I can trust Him to take care of me and my son today. I will remind myself that it's time to just sit back and watch Him work. Do you need to join me? :-) 


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