The Heartbeat

Aunt Polly and me in the car

 I was reading Psalm 33 this morning. In verses 13 to 15, the psalmist says, The Lord looks down from heaven and sees the whole human race. From His throne, He observes all who live on the earth. He made their hearts, so He understands everything they do. (NLT) I guess that resonated with me so much because I don't even understand all I do! Lol. But I also found it oddly comforting to know that God gets us.

He made our hearts - that's interesting to me because our soul's heartbeat can be a complex thing. For caregivers, our emotions can range from elated to deep grief, to sadness and back again. And all of that in a matter of seconds... milliseconds... nanoseconds. But God won't miss a thing.

He sees the silent tears that run down our cheeks long after everyone is tucked into bed and it feels as dark inside as it is outside.

He understands when our joys are short-lived because it's misplaced and confusing. 

He gets every feeling and emotion behind the deepest sigh, and He can put words to it even when we can't.

I love that He gets all those roller-coaster emotions that don't even make sense to us. He understands us because He made our hearts. He designed the heartbeat and the breath  - the two sure signs that life exists. On top of that - as if that wasn't enough - He gets the way we feel and our emotions. And what I really love about God is that as crazy as the space in my head and the feelings in my heart can be - He still chooses to be with me. He wants to walk through time with us. 

No one is so "special" that God chooses NOT to be their refuge. All are welcome to come to Him. He never looked out over mankind and time to find a single person He would not accompany them on their journey through time. And we are no different, even though our journeys can be very different than the "norm." Our norms are WAAAAAY different. Lol. He still gets it. He still gets us. 

Today, I will remind myself that He is intentional about walking through time with me. I'm not the "one" in all time and eternity that God would choose to not walk with. To not sit with. To not be a refuge...So, today, when my emotions are all over the place and my thoughts are like an old-school runaway freight train, I'll remind myself that God's not scared of that either. I can choose to be with Him and acknowledge that He chooses to be with me too. And I'll just let that blow my mind as I trust Him for one more day. Will you join me?

Cover of my book 31 Days in Psalm 31

Check out one of my best-selling books - 31 Days in Psalm 31. It's a devotional taken from Psalm 31 (obviously!) - a time when David was hiding in a cave from Saul - even though he'd been anointed the next king. The social isolation of caregiving can certainly make it feel like we live in a cave but God is there with us. And that's what this 31-day devotional is all about, exploring and discovering God in the caves of life. You can get the eBook from my shop at Buy Me A Coffee. Or the print and kindle versions are available in my Amazon Shop.

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