I Can't Say That!

 

I was a little amused this morning as I read through Psalm 40. He starts nobly enough - kind of like how I start my caregiving days with positive thoughts. David says in verse 1, I waited patiently for the Lord. (NKJ) He then goes on to talk about how he was in a pit, and God pulled him out. Then, God set his feet on a rock, established his steps, and put a new song in David's mouth. I nod eagerly in agreement, as it's great when God comes to our rescue and makes our paths smoother and more solid - even for us caregivers! 

But I honestly cannot say that I waited patiently for God. Do I look to Him for help? Absolutely! My cries for help are almost constant.. lol. Do I ask God for direction daily? Yes, I Do! Are there times I lean into Him to hear His heart so its beating for me can carry me through another day, hour, minute, or moment? Another absolutely, yes! And God comes through every single time! While I can say all that - I still can't say that I do it patiently.

Turns out, neither could David! What? He started this psalm with how patiently he was waiting for God to rescue him. But in verses 13 and 17, he kind of tells a different story. Verse 13 says, O Lord, make haste to help me! And in verse 17, the "patient" king prays, Do not delay, O my God!  Maybe I missed something, does that sound patient to you? Lol. 

I laugh because I relate. One second, I'm making a video telling everyone how God is in the pit with us. How He comes to our "here" and walks with us and delivers us. The next second I'm wondering where He is and when He's coming back for me. Can you relate as a caregiver?

It's okay, we are not schitzo. It's the nature of the walk, of our day-to-day lives, where we have to trust God is in each breath and will be there for the next one, too. Over time, we seem patient to others, and maybe even to ourselves. We'll preach it. We'll talk about how God is in the waiting. How He meets us there every single time. But we are also crying out for a RIGHT NOW God. We need Him in each moment. And God is cool with that.

Today, I'll remind myself that God doesn't get mad, upset, or in a frenzy when I am impatient. He's not wringing His hands, wondering what He's going to do with us. I'll remember that He is patient. And He's patient with me, even when I am not patient with Him.  I will express my gratitude to the God who waits on me to wait on Him and then steps in so graciously to save. I'll remind myself that He's walked this far with me on this caregiving journey, and I know I can trust Him for one more day. Will you join me?

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