Pivotal Moments

 

Life is loaded with pivotal moments, and there are many of them on the caregiving journey. One of the first pivotal moments on my personal CG journey was when my son was still in the hospital. I never left the hospital after his wreck, and we were there for over 3 months. There was this one day, though, when the reality of it all was starting to sit in, and I was trying to sort it out emotionally. I couldn't even think about or plan for the future because I had zero to work with at that point.

I had finally figured out that life had changed, and it was going to be a long, difficult journey at best. I went out for a walk and decided that I couldn't walk it for Chris, but I could walk it with him. I remember going back up to his room and crawling up beside him on the bed and telling him that. Of course, he didn't acknowledge anything because he wasn't really waking up yet. But it didn't matter; I was resolved and committed to the journey even though I couldn't see one step in front of me.

The second powerful pivotal moment came years later. I was standing in Chris' bedroom, and I was overwhelmed, underwhelmed, overloaded, burnt out, and tons of other appropriate terms when I said, God, I cannot handle one more thing! Plain as day, I had this thought in my head. I'm gonna say that God answered me, but you can call it whatever you are comfortable with. 

As soon as I said I cannot handle one more thing! I heard a question - Or what?

In that moment when I was broken, confused, burdened, and life was so weighty - I realized that one more thing was very likely. And if and when it came, no matter what it was - I would still just trust God. I don't know if I've ever found such quick resolve! 

I think Rahab gives us an example of such a pivotal moment. In Joshua 2, the spies have come to Jericho. She brings them in and hides them before expressing her resolve. She started by saying that she knew God was giving them the land and city of Jericho. As she continued talking, she said, For the Lord your God is the supreme God of the heavens and the earth below. There's that resolve. As she acknowledged God in that moment, she seemed to imply - and I'm going to serve Him one way or another. Of course, she pleaded for her family and was granted her desires. Later, we know she ended up in the lineage of Christ, but it was that one pivotal moment where she acknowledged God as God that changed the whole trajectory of her life.

In our darkest moments, deepest concerns, hopeless circumstances, or fill in the blank with your most pressing thoughts - when we decide to just trust God no matter what the outcome, no matter if things get better or they get worse, we change our paths' trajectories and we are catapulted into the heart of God. He is near the brokenhearted - and moves in closer just to hear us breathe.

Today, I am resolved to trust Him no matter how the journey goes. Whether it is light or dark, rocky or smooth, in a downpour or the desert, I am going to trust Him for this day. Will you join me?

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