Holding It All Together

Chris watching a cute puppy at Bluff Creek Trails

Do you ever feel like one of your biggest daily struggles is just trying to "hold it all together"? Life can feel so fragmented, a shattered shell of what once was. Sometimes, caregivers may feel like others just don't get it, and that we chose to be a caregiver. We are looked at as some sort of less than. Someone who is not worthy, or who is beneath the standards set out by the world. It's easy to feel like we are undeserving of help. Of love. Of other people's time.

Can I tell you right now that if you feel less than, or like you are just trying to hold it all together - you are in good company and in good hands!

A series of events over the last few days had me questioning my own existence. I began to feel like I was incapable of a normal life. And worse than that, some things said by loved ones made me feel shunned, like I'd committed some immortal sin and needed to be sentenced to a life sentence of aloneness. 

I started writing some of it in my journal, but found myself carrying it all to Him in prayer this morning. With tears leaking out of my eyes, I heard myself say, I am just trying to hold it all together. That ended up being a very pivotal moment for me.

Immediately, I thought of a verse I knew to be in Colossians. In chapter 1 verse 17, it says, By Him all things consist. I knew it meant to hold things together, but I looked it up in the Amplified Bible, which says, And He Himself existed before all things, and in Him all things consist (cohere, are held together). 

I formed a mental image of myself holding all this stuff and trying to keep it all together. But around me was God, and He was holding me and keeping me all together. 

No matter what is going on in our lives today, God is holding us together. The verse in Colossians says He holds all things together. That literally covers everything - including ME! While I am trying to hold it all together, I must be reminded that it is my loving Father, Creator, and King who is holding me together day after day.

Today, I will rest in this truth. He is holding me together, so I can let go and give Him control over all the things I'm trying to hold together. I will give Him the parts of me that feel broken. I'll hand Him the fragments of what I call life and let Him hold together what needs to be held together. I will not worry about the rest. Today, I will relinquish control to the One who can truly hold me together and I will trust Him for one more day. Will you join me?


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