Not-So-Gracefully Broken

 

Chris looking at himself in the mirror

Ever hear the phrase, gracefully broken? Yeah? That's not me. Oh, I can put on a front so no one knows or sees how shattered my heart and emotions are - but I'm not so graceful sometimes. As caregivers, we never know what is going to come at us any given day. And while I know that I have HIS all-sufficient grace for each and every day, I don't always handle things in a super graceful way.

One little hiccup, and I lose it. It can be anything! Literally! From spilled coffee (hey, that's serious!) to unwashed dishes waiting for their turn in the dishwasher. Little things from not being able to find the perfect temperature to bigger things like heart attacks can send my emotions off and leave me trying to reel them back in. I've laughed about struggling to open a trash bag. Hey, the struggle is real! 

The frustrations often come from feelings of brokenness. My outbursts indicate that I am "not-so-gracefully" broken at times. But what I love about God is that He sees the brokenness. He sees the frustration. He gets it. And He never moves away. In fact, He moves in closer when we need Him more.

As the crucible of life begins crushing us, His grace explodes on our behalf. It is always enough to carry us through whatever is eating away at our souls. His grace enables us to be caregivers. The grace of God was enough to carry Paul through the long list of struggles preceding the realization that God's grace is enough. Please note that God did not prevent Paul from going through the struggles he listed. But it did carry him through every situation. It will always be enough. Grace won't run out!

Even though I dont' feel grace-full many days, I know that I am full of HIS grace every day. I have to move toward trusting God to have the grace for today and beyond, no matter what comes.

Today, I will remind myself that no matter how I feel, His grace is tee-totally enough for today. I can trust His grace won't run out. Even after all those years since Paul wrote about God's all-sufficient grace, we can believe and trust that it is still enough. He did not say that God's grace is enough for everyone except caregivers...it's still enough in 2026! And because of that - I know I can trust Him for one more day. Will you join me?





Cover of "Peace Out It's in the Bible!"

 Peace Out! It's in the Bible is a 31-day devotional that is focused on letting God's peace reign in our hearts - no matter what. You can get the eBook from my shop at Buy Me A Coffee. Or the print and kindle versions are available in my Amazon Shop.




  

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