Unanswered Questions

 We don't always get answers to our questions, do we? It's impossible for us to understand why some things happen or why they happened a certain way. Just because there are unanswered questions running around in our minds, it doesn't mean God hasn't responded. Maybe He didn't respond like we thought He would, or with the response we thought we were going to get.

In Isaiah 49:8, God tells the prophet, I will respond to you. He goes on to say, I will help you. If I'm totally honest, God's help, which I am very thankful for, doesn't look like what I expected or desired. David understood that God was his help. In Psalm 121, he declares, " My help comes from the Lord, who made the heavens and the earth! 

Isaiah and David both knew the source of help. But it can certainly look different for each of us. It can even look different from one day to the next. 

As caregivers, there is a lot on our proverbial plates. We have to wear many hats. We are caregivers, spouses, parents, employees, and someone's child. There are times when we become healthcare workers, performing duties we never dreamed of as children. And God is our help.

He continues to patiently help us through each of our task-filled days. Personally, I couldn't make it without His help. His strength. His grace. I know I need Him, and that's okay.

Help is the response. 

His constant presence is something I've held on to throughout this caregiving journey. I know He's got me covered. I recall many long, dark nights when I was sinking into despair. My feeble reach somehow reached His heart, and in His compassion, He swooped me up and comforted me, cared for me, and comforted me in a way I'll never fully understand. 

I'm so thankful and so grateful! But I really wanted a different response. I wanted my situation to change. A Gate Beautiful miracle would be nice. (Acts 3) In fact, early on, this was my frustration, that He didn't come riding in on His white horse and set all things right in my world. Even though I didn't get the response I wanted - He still responded to my deepest need. He met my heart right where it was. He offered no judgment. He didn't condemn. He just helped me. And we all know how hard good help is to find these days! Lol.

Today, I will be thankful that God did respond to the deepest, unutterable cries of this broken heart. My meditation will be on how He hasn't ever left me stranded, but always meets me where I am. No matter how broken I feel, He is there. No matter how distraught I become, He is there. No matter how frustrated or angry I may be, He is still right there. I love that about God. I will remind myself today that He is in my now. He is in my today. He is right here in this moment. I can trust Him with one more day. Will you join me?

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Affirmations for Caregivers

I wrote Affirmations for Caregivers because it was what I needed to hear! This 31-day journal includes 31 scripturally based affirmations. Each day, the affirmation is followed by a short writing prompt and a verse or two to read. I also have videos on YouTube that coincide with each day's affirmation.