The Crazy Caregiver Maze

 

Do you ever just feel alone? Not just a little bit lonely either. That gut-gnawing aloneness that digs deeply at your soul. And sure, we know we are not alone. God is with us. We get that. We understand that. But there are times when our souls sink into the mire of aloneness and it's difficult to climb back out.

Here in Oklahoma, we have this nasty, red, clay-like "dirt." If it gets wet, it gets so slick that you can't walk in it. If there is any slant to the ground at all, you may find yourself covered head to toe in muck, trying to get out of it. Lol. It can be quite the sight and quite the difficult situation.

Sometimes, aloneness swallows us whole and it's like trying to get out of the mucky, wet clay pit. We just keep sliding back emotionally. It can feel like you're not making any progress at all, just getting sucked into a pit. Ever feel that way?

If we think about it for a few minutes, there are a lot of emotional caverns that can suck the life out of us. And it doesn't always take much. Fortunately, I am learning to recognize them more quickly, so I can counter with something else - anything else. 

You know what I love about God, though? 

He knows.

He sees.

He gets us.

He doesn't condemn us.

He meets us in the mucky-mire.

And He holds us.

I'm so thankful that He doesn't abandon us when life and emotions don't make sense. David was in a mucky-mire situation when he wrote Psalm 13. He felt like God couldn't see, couldn't hear, couldn't reach him. (Ever felt that way?) David felt like the enemy was winning. In verse 4, he prays, don't let my enemies gloat saying, "we have defeated him!" Don't let them rejoice at my downfall. 

Then, he goes on to declare: I will trust in Your unfailing love. I will rejoice because You have rescued me. I will sing to the Lord because He has been so good to me.

I feel this way every single time God rescues me from the mental, emotional mucky mire that I find myself in. I love that we can trust Him with everything from cloudy thoughts to fear, emotional breaking to total excitement, and everything in between. He's not afraid to get dirty, so He reaches down His huge caring hand and pulls us out of life's overcoming circumstances over and over again. Sometimes more than once a day, too! lol

Today, I will remind myself that God's hand is big enough and strong enough to rescue my soul one more time. He is not reluctant to do so, either. I love that about God! I will declare with David - I will trust, I will rejoice, and I will sing to the Lord. He has indeed been so so good to me - to us. He chooses to walk through this crazy emotional caregiving maze with us. I am so thankful. I know that I can trust Him with one more day. Will you join me?