Always a Question

 It simply is NOT easy taking care of another whole person. I don't know about you, but I find myself second-guessing nearly every decision. My hope was that this would get better over time, but it has not. No matter how big or small a matter is, it seems like there is always a question. 

Did I make the right choice? Was that the wrong decision? If I'm not careful (overthinker that I am), I will let those questions drag me into the emotional abyss and convince me that every decision I've ever made was wrong. LOL. Funny, but somehow it happens!

It's just hard to make decisions for another person, especially if they can't weigh in on things that affect them. For some of us, myself included, there's enough second-guessing about the decisions that affect us directly, without the emotional mix that comes with making decisions for (or about) others. 

Yesterday, I had the opportunity to meet up with a missionary who visited my uncle's church last Sunday. We hit it off and sat there for over 3 hours visiting, fellowshiping, and getting to know one another. I had such a good time. But afterward, I worried that Chris had to sit there so long. I felt so bad. But I needed the outing and the fellowship, so I tried to talk myself down. I mean, really, how dare I do something for me? lol. But I think we all do that to some extent. 

We are quick to choose our loved ones over ourselves. Daily, we put our needs, desires, and lives to the side to take care of them. Why do we question when we do one little thing for ourselves? It's our nature, I think. 

Last week, I was led to study the Proverbs 31 woman. I was very reluctant because of the way it used to be shoved down our throats, and we never could measure up. But this time, I saw something new. (I love that about our Teacher, Holy Spirit!) She definitely did a great job of taking care of her household, which included her servants. But did you know she did stuff for herself, too? I never saw that before!

Verse 22 says that she makes herself bed coverings, and her clothing is fine linen and purple. She did some small things for herself. And she was busy, too! 

Why is it that we feel so guilty for taking a 5-minute break? Or talk on the phone for a few minutes with a friend? I mean, honestly, many of us barely make time to take ourselves to the bathroom! LOL.

We spend money to make sure our loved ones are clothed, fed, and comfortable. Let's not feel guilty about doing it for ourselves when we can. God has no condemnation for us for it!

Today, I will remind myself that God cares about me, too. I will think about how He gives as much (or more) attention to taking care of me as I do to my loved one. My thoughts will be about His desire to bless me with peace, grace, and mercy. Today, I'll dip into those freely, knowing that He won't run out of any of it when it's my time of need. I will let Him lavish His love on my today as I trust Him with one more day, will you join me?

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