Broken or Broken?


Chris walking in the Rise and Walk

Does it ever feel like life is broken? I have those days when everything feels broken. It can be in one specific area or (usually) several areas. Everything seems like it's out of place, and nothing is working or going like it should. It's exasperating, physically, mentally, and emotionally. 

I mention being in the crucible of life a lot, maybe because I feel like I'm there A LOT! It feels like life is just pressing in and pressing the life out of me sometimes. But even in this "broken" state - I know God has me and I am not broken.

Being broken before God doesn't mean we are broken. We may be brokenhearted and poor in spirit, meaning we are very familiar with our deeply intense need for Him. That's the opposite of being broken... it just means we are smart enough to figure out in our brokenness, we need Him more than anything. 

I love that God made it clear in the Word that He is with us when we feel broken. Psalm 34:18 says that He is near the brokenhearted. I think we can apply this to the feelings that life is broken and doesn't look "normal." Those times when nothing seems to fit right and we get our emotions all out of shape? He moves in closer.

When we are so physically tired, we can't do one more thing. He moves in closer.

When we find ourselves broken and crying out to God with what we are sure is our last breath... He moves in closer. 

Those eternally long days when it feels like everything is going wrong and nothing feels right...He moves in closer and even closer.

I love that He doesn't back away when life gets overwhelming or disgusting! That may be when people move away. (No judging - they like Job's friends see our grief, they just don't know what to say or do.) But it's when He moves in closer.

He cannot abandon us - couldn't if He tried. (He is everywhere!) But what's even better is that He wants to be close to us. Even in our pain. Our grief. Our so-not-normal lives, He wants to be close. I love that about God.

Today, I'll remind myself that He isn't going anywhere no matter how confused I may be, no matter how difficult the day may seem, no matter how alone, perplexed, frustrated, or squished I feel...He stays close. He reminds me I may have a broken heart - but I am not broken. He's got me today, just like every other day and He doesn't want anything more than to walk through this day with me.. dragging me by His grace as needed... I will trust this up-close-and-personal God with one more day. Will you join me?

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Something new I've been working on: a new website. I've just got it started, but check it out! I'll be adding more books and classes later. Plus, I'm working on adding a Caregiver Corner - just for caregivers! 


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