So Ambiguous!
My mentor told me one time that I was ambiguous but I didn't know what it meant at the time and so I had to go look it up. After I discovered what it meant, I realized I had two very different opinions about a lot of things. Over the last few days I've felt sort of divided about how I feel about God too. (It's okay - He understands and isn't mad at all!) On one hand - I love God with all my heart and trust Him fully. On the other hand I really don't understand why bad or difficult things have to happen in life; or how come He allows them. I think I found a Psalm to help me sort it all out. It's Psalm 42 and it starts out with the psalmist discussing how they long for God. As the deer pants for water - that's how my soul longs for God. I feel that way; even wrote a chorus about being thirsty for His presence to invade every part of my life. Verse 4, talks about how the psalmists remembers hanging out with God's people. I recall being very involved...