Never Enough?

 Days run so short, and time runs out at the end of them. It is so easy to feel like there is not enough time in the day. Not enough resources. Not enough help. Not enough money. Not enough friends. That's just the beginning, sometimes. Maybe it's just me, but I have a feeling I'm not alone. It can feel like there's not enough of a lot of things.

I've been thinking about this for the last few days and just feeling inadequate. Of course, I figure much of it is my own fault because I've taken on a few things, like opportunities to share God's word. How dare I take on something I can actually enjoy! (sarcasm alert) Even though I'm being a bit silly, the feelings are real.

Over the last week or so, I've been working on reorganizing life. Chris has made some improvements, but that means more therapy, more time in the standing frame, and more adjustments to our already too-tight schedule. (What schedule! Lol) 

As caregivers, we become good jugglers. Or maybe we are bad at juggling, so we just feel overwhelmed all the time. Lol. Okay, fine: that's me! :-) 

So how do we get grounded again? For me, it means finding a scripture or passage that I can apply to my heart. For instance, this morning, as I was juggling my emotions and feelings of being overwhelmed and trying to figure out how to be a caregiver AND productive today, I just started to pray. Then, I remembered how faithful God is. Okay, so I started singing CeCe Winan's song - all my life you've been so faithful (even when I wasn't), all my life you've been so so good...(even when I wasn't). 

I began to think about the faithfulness of God, and I ended up in Psalm 36:5-6. This is my paraphrase between the NLT and the NKJV.

Your mercy and unfailing love reach beyond the heavens

Your faithfulness reaches far beyond where I can comprehend infinitely into eternity

Your righteousness is strong, sturdy, and tall like the mountains...

I just read that over and over, and I settled into trusting in His faithfulness for one more day. Like you, I can look back and see all the times I thought were "the end" or "the worst," yet He continued to carry me through them all. 

He walks with us through things humans won't even talk about. He sees the caregiver's raw emotions, hears the silent cries, and catches the escaped tears. God understands the unmentionables and how they wear on our souls. And He remains faithful. Whether we have words or not. Whether we have our thoughts together or not. Whether we can voice our pain or not... He gets us. And He's faithful.

Today, I'll remind myself that He is with me, and He's got nowhere to go but here! I'll think about how His mercies are enough, even when I am not. My meditations will be on how His supply of grace is more than what I can ever need in a day or a lifetime. And that's why I can trust Him for one more day. Will you join me?

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