Okay, so I'm a math and science nerd. I taught middle school math and did the coursework for a minor in math, just for fun. It's been a lifelong love relationship. I say that to warn you that I am super curious about science and math topics. I am a casual student of quantum theories, too. (Very casual. lol)  String theory is the supposition that the universe is made up of a series of minuscule vibrating strings. They connect throughout the universe. But I have a different string theory. It came about this week as i was standing in the kitchen. I thought, I can get on my (paid) work projects after I finish this. But then, I realized I had another loose end that needed to be tied off before I could get to “real” work.  No sooner did I have that thought than it led to  just one more thing  that had to be done. I realized mentally, I'd just planned the entire afternoon, with no time left for actual paid work. This is a daily exercise, I'm finding. Lol. ...

 Didn't you hate it as a child when you asked a parent, why? and got the standard answer, because I said so ? Or even worse - just  because. It's even worse to have to admit that, as parents, we did it to our children. LOL. It can certainly give "because" a bad reputation and bring out the eye-roll. :-) But sometimes, it's the only answer that makes sense in the moment. As I was reading through Psalm 63 this morning, I found because two times. However, in this case, it's there for a reason. It's more like a therefore , which, when we read therefore  in scriptures, we want to look back to see what it is there for. It's always in reference to something that's just been said. But because  is a little different in that it seems to be offering a reason or a why.  At least in Psalm 63 it seems that way.  In verse 3 David says, because Your livingkindness is better than life , I will praise You. In verse 7, David says, because  You have been my help, I wi...

 This weekend, we watched "Soul on Fire." It's the story of a 9-year-old boy who played with gasoline and matches and was burned over most of his body. It's an inspiring story of resilience. In one scene, his mom was praying in the chapel. Boy, did that bring back memories. I recall the many trips I made down to the chapel during the four-plus months we were at the Shreveport hospital.  I tried to sing and play the piano that was there. I prayed. I sat quietly. I took communion. It was such a difficult time. As I watched their story unfold, it brought back lots of memories for me. A time or two, I had to pause the movie and gather myself.  Today, though I was thinking about their story, my story, and all of your stories. Don't we all have inspiring stories? Most likely, each of us doesn't think our stories are all that inspiring, especially since we are stuck in the middle of living them.   But we all inspire each other. We inspire one another to keep the fait...

Have you ever felt like God can't hear you? Do you ever think that He has looked away or isn't paying attention? It was this thinking that David shared in Psalm 13 that made me feel like I wasn't the only one that ever felt that way.  I had read Psalm 13 many times and even sang versions of it as a church worship leader. But when I hit the dark night of the soul , it began to ring louder in my soul. David was in despair as he cried out How long will You look the other way? If nothing else, I realized that God didn't strike David dead for asking it and that He let it be included in the Bible. David expresses some of the things we think, but are indirectly told we can't ask.  David wasn't afraid to speak his mind. To ask hard questions like, How long will You forget me? Forever? How long will You look the other way? How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart every day? How long will my enemy have the upper hand? Those are some very s...

  Do we really understand who God is? Do we know all He has done for us? I've taken a look or two through the first couple of chapters of Ephesians lately, and there are tons of things He's done for us and provided for us. I wonder if we miss some of it sometimes. That doesn't mean it's not ours. It doesn't mean we don't have it. We just may not reap the benefit of some things because we don't know it belongs to us. Have you ever had a long-lost relative? One you either didn't know you had, or for whatever reason, you were separated early on? Just because you don't know them, doesn't mean you are not related. God has provided for us in so many ways, we miss some things, though, because we simply do not know we can tap into them. This is where my mind went as I continued in Psalm 9 this morning. Verse 10 says, those who know Your name, will trust You. For You have not forsaken those who seek You.  When we know Him - we will trust Him. When we cont...

I hate that feeling I have when I wake up in the morning to all the things I didn't get to yesterday. Sometimes it's a sink of dirty dishes, laundry I forgot to switch out, postponing ministry emails, or a long list of job-related tasks. Sigh. It makes me tired before I even get started on my day. Anyone else ever feel that way?  Sometimes, it feels like things pile up and pile up, until I'm sure I'm going to be swept away in the aftermath. But no. That would be a little relief. I'm sure it'd all still be waiting here when I return with my arm in a sling and foot in a boot. LOL. I may be exaggerating a little, but only a little! Simply put - caregiving can be overwhelming on the best days. But we just keep putting one foot in front of another. Can I say this, though? Our enemy isn't our dirty house, piles of laundry, or the dishes starting to mold in the sink. It can feel that way, though. Our enemies are many. Doubt. Fear. Hopelessness. Aloneness. Social is...

 Why do we try to plan our days? It does help keep us a little more on the side of sanity, at least for me it does. But there are those times when the unexpected changes our day. Our days, our lives can change on a dime. I type this as I sit here in the ER with Chris, who suddenly became ill after doing so well and absolutely no signs of sickness.  What do we do when these things happen? Of course, we turn to prayer. We choose to trust God for the outcome, no matter what it looks like. I have no doubt this will be a positive outcome and that God will carry us through another time.  As you know, taking a loved one to the ER is stressful. You never know if you'll get a good doc or a bad doc. Tons of questions, especially when you are not sure what is going on with your loved one. Will the dr dismiss my concerns? Will they listen to me? So many questions... The doctor this morning listened to me and did not dismiss my concerns. He seemed to run all the right tests (not the r...